My 1st 1 Bedr Apt

haha, as i typed the title, I thought this may be the first and my last after the last entry I just posted.
*fingers crossed*

but anyways on July 18th I signed my lease for my first 1 bedroom apt, it's in my name with no cosigner and it is not student/college housing. So now i have my own car, own apt and all these big bills, but I am an adult and it comes with the territory. going to have two house warming parties...one for Iota and one for AKPsi before I move the furntiture in but I am very excited to start this new lifestyle.

i will definitely miss the convenience of living in Rolling Hills directly across from school, but I rather be away from school so that I can be more independent.

attached are some pics of the new place, Seawind Lakes in Lauderdale Lakes.

SN: it's all tile..I need carpets!!

Coach Darius Butler Jr.

I feel like I have been swept off of my feet and and am floating amongst the clouds. On Sunday July 20th, this really hot guy walks into my job needing to use the restroom. He's even doing the peepee dance and I can't help but laugh at him as he runs across the lobby.
He then comes back to me and strikes up a conversation and we exchange numbers.

That evening we went out for drinks and spent some hours talking and getting to know each other. He called me a good catch, cute and intelligent and he just knew he had to talk to me. He has a degree in teaching and has 2 kids and loves to coach and personally train others. He's 32 and ready to get married. Crazy enough he wants more kids, I told him the best he'll get is 2 from me! HA! Then he called me babe before I went to bed. In my head, I'm like "pump the brakes homeboy" but in my heart I'm like "awww".

So Monday he invites me to spend the night with him because I didn't have such a good night at my new 1bedr apt (another story) and so I did. Although I thought we were going to go out prior to bedtime! He was so sweet and very cuddly and I just loved being all wrapped up in him. He asked me did I want to go out and I said it didn't matter, his response "I don't wanna let you down," a girl like me faints after hearing that. Nobody ever cares if they're disappointing me or not. In that moment I realized I wanted his heart.

And then last night we spent another night together. This time he took his butt to sleep! No love came my way, at one point I had no pillow or his arm to rest on. lol!!! but then this morning I told him that I wanted him mentally, physically, and emotionally. And he said he wanted the same from me and asked if I'd give it to him! In my head I screamed, hell yea..but to him I just said "umhmm". One day I hope to reflect on this with a very happy post about marriage and kids...because in all honesty, I think he's the one! Have never really felt this way about anyone before and it feels all weird and tingly...but I know he'll give me the loyalty, honesty, and stability I am looking for.

Birthday Week Recap

June 10, 2014 was my 24th birthday.

My birthday fell on a Tuesday this year, so Monday night after class I had a few drinks with classmates (Taylor and Shelby) and then a brownie and ice cream! Was a nice time.

I spent the next day at work, and nobody knew it was my birthday except the person in a parallel position to mine. Lauren, the Exec Asst to the President of EU...she's so sweet! Bought me a cupcake, card and lipgloss.

I went to dinner, and only 2 of maybe 11 people invited showed up. Had an after event planned and that turned out to be karaoke night and a Heat game...so the spoken word I was looking forward to didn't happen.

But you know, I was like it's age 24..it's not really a big deal. I am not expecting much out of this one. And I am so happy I didn't get my hopes up high or I would have been devastated.

Yesterday evening was this guy i started talking to birthday...he turned 24 just like I did. And he told me he would keep me updated on the plans "he didn't have" and I told him "I would like to spend the night celebrating with him"

However he ignored all my calls and texts...I went by his house to surprise him and he wasn't there. he was already dressed and gone to "the office" some strip club in miami. so i went home and couldn't believe he ditched me and lied to me, because he said...he had just woken up about 30 mins prior.

So, I went home and cried myself to sleep. Realizing that I always blame the guys for being lame, disrespectful, not realizing they have a good thing, blah blah blah...but after all the guys I have liked, I have loved, or I have slept with...the only common factor is me! Something has to be wrong with me...fuck the car, apt, degree(s), or fact that I have no kids...not even any scares. And yet I'm single...nobody pursuing me, nobody wanting to spend time with me. I just get used and abused by people I think deserve a chance.

I don't wanna have sex with anyone, like anyone, or spend time with anyone...anymore. It's depressing to continuously get my feelings hurt by people who don't care about me.

So my birthday week, in a nutshell sucked. I post pics to IG to make it seem like I am enjoying life and having a good time...but every day just sucks more than the last. I am unhappy in school, work, and relationship wise. Lord when will it be my turn to be happy. I work so hard, every day to do right by everyone, but who is trying to do right by me?

EdD vs PhD

Every day is a mental battle to choose between a EdD or a PhD.

I figured I should only go onto a EdD because I am not interested in teaching in the classical sense of classroom instruction, but today I had an epiphany...

I'm not going to limit myself to an EdD. A PhD will give me more opportunity to influence college students. Not just socially but academically as well. A more Hollistic Approach.
2/23/14

Transition

Just kind of a personal update about me!

January moved back from Georgia to Florida. Attending Nova Southeastern University in person now in Ft. Lauderdale. I am 9 classes away from my Master's in College Student Affairs. I am also pledging Alpha Kappa Psi Fraternity, Inc. It's a coed business fraternity. I am do well, but we're only 3 weeks or so into the process!

I am single, have been since October when I broke up with Damien, through text message. Awful I know, but he drove me to it.

I am still not done with my degree at UCF, however, I will be done this summer. No questions asked. 2 more classes left, and I am hoping to enroll, after I pay of the debt with my summer aid. A lot of stress was caused by being enrolled at both schools, but I am a conqueror no matter what.

Lastly, I am sleeping on Yvelaine's couch. But by May 1st I should be moved into my very own 1 bedroom apt in Pampano Beach. I started a job in the library at my school, as a Graduate Lab Assistant and it's $10.50 an hour. I pretty much am getting paid to do my homework. #WIN And in addition to that, I was offered a full time position at Everglades University in Boca Raton that I start Friday 2/14...yes Valentine's Day. But eh, I'm in love with the money!! This position came right on time, I am running out of gas money, honey! I will be the Administrative Assistant to Academics/Executive Assistant to the Vice President of Academic Affairs. I am so thrilled! I'm about to be bringing in roughly $3500 a month!

The goal now is to save save save, learn as much as I can! Then next year (2015) be done with both master's and ready for any job around the country. After that I'll start a doctoral program in 2017 to be done before I turn 30 years old. Bachelor's at 21, 2 Master's at 25 and a Doctorate at 30. Yea, I'm doing the most but I love it!!!