You know, when you tell someone you love them...you can't really take that back. But right now I hate you.
I literally fell in love with you....and fell flat on my damn face.
Tonight it stops here. I'm not going to check on you, hit you up, wonder if you're in town...or let you control my heart or emotions any further.
Good bye, Dejey Andou!
I said I never wanted to be on twitter because it was the devil. within three days or so I saw more drama than my almost three years on it combined. I somehow hurt my roomie/best friend feelings because I talked about her negatively. Now I've just deactivated it. I can't take this bull anymore. Tired of people getting out of hand because they can hide behind an Android phone or iPhone. Tired of drama finding me. Ugh, just over it all. Bye bye twitter.
Someone swapped my license plate with another car, and my plate and Iota Sweetheart vover is missing. Had to file a police report. Dumbest thing to ever happen to me. My plate identifies my car, why would a person steal that?
And my plate cover was a gift. I want it returned to me.
:'(
Today sucks. I'm writing this post as tears roll down my face.
I fell in love with someone who hasn't been loved enough.
This person was there for me when I was down about not being chosen to join the Greek lettered organization of my choice.
But when he got angry, he used that information against me.
Now the girl he cheated on me with, or cheated on her with me...only he knows the truth...has been chosen. Potentially an Ace the same as him.
The shit hurts so much. It's like a double whammy.
In college, as student leaders...people expect us to be superheroes! And that's okay because our capes are just invisible!
In undergrad I was involved in so much. And people still expect me to step up and do everything. Smh.
Today I picked up the Title to my car. JBC Auto Sales signed over the car to me. I paid it off in less than a year!! this is car #2. Satin has been through a lot. But we made it this far! :)
God Fearing
can dance
lovely chef
hold interesting conversation
loves to travel
ambitious and goal oriented
involved on campus or in student orgs
graduate
well paid job
own car
family oriented
creative
To be Continued....
MNM
Masters of Nonprofit Management from the University of Central Florida.
I sat with Latoya, John, Lockey, and Valerie! :) Classmates for the next year!
Basically it was boring, but helpful information. Turned in my plan of study. Learned about some different resources and professional associations I can be apart of. And started to get to know the administration leaders in my specific department.
Afterwards we went to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner..yumtastic!! But I was missing a wing and the girl brought me a new one...and also took some money off my bill!! Lovely!
There was also a really huge screen. Wall to wall. *insider*
I stopped liking you a long time ago. I fell out of love with you. Yes I still love you but I don't think you love me like you say you do.
It hurts me everyday we don't talk. It kills me that you rather not talk to anybody me included for days on end. I can't quite understand how a person doesn't turn to the one they love in time of happiness, sadness, hurt, confusion or excitement. Whatever it is..if you can't come to me then we shouldn't be considering a relationship.
I'm not asking to be your gf. You approached me for that. I was just fine being a friend.
So make up your mind and stick to it.
It's funny to me how some people never actually change.
I gave you my heart six months ago, and you broke it. You blatantly disrespected me, my body, mind and heart. But yet and still, I still love you wholeheartedly. I trust you better than I did before. I know where I want to be in relation to you and what I expect from you. But I'm getting neither. I text you every day, call you just so you know I'm thinking about you. You respond to half the text and zero percent of the phone calls. I'm feeling like a hostage.
you're up or you're down, but you don't reach out to me. If anything you pull away from me more and more each day. I told you from months ago, don't do that. Don't shut down and kick me out. How the fuck am I supposed to be a good gf, friend, confident or sister to you if you keep pushing me farther and farther away from you?
I don't even know you any more. I'm tired. I just want to be loved back wholeheartedly. I don't want to ever second guess how you feel about me. And when we aren't communicating I do that. Because I don't get how sometime can love someone or ask to be in a serious relationship with them and not bend over backwards to talk to them or visit them in their free time.
I can't operate like this. Either get it together or walk back out of my life. I refuse to beg you to love me, and show me it's real.
This past weekend, I did a four city tour in a lil Fiat!!! I hit Tallahassee, Gainesville, Miami and Lauderdale. I got a stupid $300 speeding ticket too but otherwise a wonderful experience!
